Today marks the start of our second official month attempting to conceive our first child! Although I’m not sure if Month 1 really counted…
I officially stopped taking birth control on August 10th. I had been on the pill for about 3 years prior to that. So last month was a little crazy without my hormones being regulated pretty consistently. I was pretty moody and I appreciate my husband for being so patient with me all the time.
I definitely forgot about how AWFUL my cramps can get. I also experienced bloating worse than I’ve probably ever felt in my life. But even with all the crazy PMS symptoms back, I feel better allowing my body to cycle as it would naturally. In fact the worst part of getting my period was the affirmation that I am not, in fact, pregnant.
I definitely experienced some depression lows this weekend surrounding that. Which is strange because I had a pretty strong feeling that we hadn’t been successful, but my period was about 2 days later than I was expecting so for a second I was very hopeful. I can’t let myself become too upset though. It was only our first month of really trying.
So I guess that leads me to my first question for you. If you are currently trying to conceive, do you ever get the fear that maybe you can’t become pregnant? Or if you are pregnant or have children, did you ever experience this fear? How did you put that fear out of your mind while you were trying? I guess I may be sounding a bit over-dramatic, but this has been a legitimate fear of mine for years.
Anyways, I don’t have a whole lot to talk about just yet. I do plan on continuing these diaries every week on Mondays, though, so as I go forward, I’m sure I will have more to share with you.